Court today

Well here we are again, who knows what will happen today. I think it is going to be a Hello I’m the children attorney and I have now need more time.

Games are planned, egg toss, doughnut eat, spin the parent. Only thing that did not happen is that the lawn was not mowed again. Fizzy drink, and cups for kids.

Saturday is coming I’m ready for a great costume. I hoping that a good group of friends show up for the house party the kids are looking forward to it. They have their costumes and they will have a good time.

Something I just understood……

Ok lets be honest, Men have no clue when something drops and falls between your boobs. ICE sucks and sometimes there is npot a good place to dig it out. LOL

Work today was a bit of a downer as I was already to go to the gym and have a workout with a client. Was dressed and ready mentally to do what I hate. Get ready to head in to the gym and was told my client was out sick today and I needed to go to an event that was taking place, So under dressed, it felt so strange seeing alot of my co-workers who might have heard that I was transitioning but have not seen me in some time, what added to the fun of that was i was in Gym clothes.
Oh well life is life filled with ups and downs. Got asked the “are you going to get the snip” then she said “having is not all that fun”. I do love working with this person she is so much fun and young at heart as well. But at least I was asked if I wanted to be called by female pronouns as well as other questions.

A few of the “older” workers and “male” workers were a bit shy and did not know what to think. I think it will take time and people will notice that I am the same person. some of the clients are adjusting a bit as well. Some just don’t care. One who I loved to work with in the past is having a bit of a struggle in his mind knows its me still likes me but is not 100% if it is really me. Once I starting talking to him the laughter starts and I know everything is going just right. BTW that is how he communicates is by laughing.

It is so nice to be back working in a job I love so much. I have missed so many of these wonderful souls. I thank god I am alive and was able to find out about a plot that would have taken away my right to earn a living. That would have crushed me if I could not have worked in this job. Tonight I saw the ripple effect of someone and how it comes back when you are not ready for it.

Well changes are taking place….

Well despite someone thinking that I was going to be a wreck on hormones…. Your dead set wrong! I have passed my first month with no issues but a wonderful sense of Calmness. Granted there could be many reasons for that much like the big  drop in blood pressure since 10/7/2015, such a large drop my doctor was amazed (go figure). Chest hair has dropped and looking good, facial hair has also slowed down no more 5pm shadow at noon, thank you dear lord, leg hair is thinning down, arm hair has changed color and thinned, chest is feeling a bit heavy now days as well and can be a bit sore at times. You see so much is changing. Going to have to talk to my good friend with the camera for a few photos to update, even I want to see the update. Damn the weight thing is driving me crazy as well. Up and down, up and down…

Kids are doing very well at school, learning and making new friends. All I hear is good news every day. I am waiting for Gabriel to come home in a negative mood. I hope he does not as I love these new moods that he is in. This is the way a child is supposed to be loving life and happy.

soon they will all have new bikes and itching to ride baby ride. I have this place that is safe and ready for them to have a good time.


Well one week away we are getting the house all cleaned and on Tuesday I am getting all the decorations for the party on Sat. the 31 HALLOWEEN. We are having a party Halloween/house warming/thank you to all the friends that I can get a hold of that helped out so much. Talk about blessings and the good Karma that keeps coming back to our family. I am so very thankful for all those who took the time and helped us in our darkest days. I can’t wait to get this party going. I am so excited!

The kids are so looking forward to it.

Ok on the Transition front, I have noticed the reduction of chest hair. A slow down on the arm hair as well. Chest is a bit sore but nothing that I could not handle. I was so sad today when I went looking through all of my postings as I had to remove a few I thought I had placed them in a draft folder but they have been removed by me at some point which is so very sad I have lost so much great information that i posted. But that is the past lets move forward.

Have a great day my friends! I do answer all emails and comments please feel free anytime to drop me a line.


Well, I once found this quote that said “the more someone is screaming another person is a liar the more we should review the person speaking”. For a long time I supported this quote. But i think as time has shown that there is a better quote that but be included with the above quote “Evidence is King”.

I have been working so very hard over the last four years trying to do what was right not only for one person but for an entire family. Since we moved out (the children and I) stress has reduced and happiness has increased to a point where it is a joy to be alive.
I have been going through my transition scared of so many things that I never though would be a part of my life. I let someone try to tell me that I would be an emotional wreck with the hormones. Well I am sorry to say, the hormones have been a pleasure in fact I have not noticed any issues. I have not once fallen into a pile in the bedroom crying over nothing. I have used the line “this is my journey and no one else’s” wow I was so wrong so many people are on it with me. Some have been 100% blessings some have been terrors. I heard a wonderful line from a moving “feed the good wolf”. I have lost track of the amount of good wolves I have met and enjoy being around. I can only count a handful of those who are the bad wolves. Lucky for me I don’t have to deal with the bad ones all that much.

I have taken the time to listen to so many people who I can say are an inspiration to me in my life. Laura Jane Grace I have learned a lot from and can say what a positive role this person plays in the Tans community. Plus what can I say I like punk music, it sparks my rebel side. I spent a long time today cleaning the house with help from my little man. I am so proud of him.

Link of the day:

Human Rights follow the link

Back to the grind

Well today was my first day back to work while a few things did not go as planned, it was a good day.

Have a watch

opps, I forgot something……

I don’t know who you were or even if your pointing was directed at me or the fact that my client was challenged. I found that it was really uncool. Both were not appropriate  and at your age you should have known better. Please think before pointing if you have questions both my Client and I could have answered anything you wanted to ask. Though I will never promise that you will like my answer.

Just another day

Well as I said I am going to get back to writing. I was hoping to do it more often. So where is the truth of the times. Well it is in the simplest fact that I STAND with my Children in our home. I never thought it would have ever come to this point in my life. I refuse to be like so many others that have traveled this road of loss. I love a person who is no longer, I see the ghost and smiles come from the memories of the past good times. I fill my prayers with the hopes that the ghost will find peace someday.

I refuse to fill my heart with anger and hate…..

I am doing very well in my Transition and I am learning more and more about finding the peace that has been missing for some time. I am learning that there is more that is unseen than seen. My life is filled with blessings that amaze me at every turn. Our new home is beyond what I ever thought we would be in.

Tuesday I return to the employment that I love so much and fills my soul. To say I am very thankful for all those who I have met over the last six months and how each one has helped me know the blessings I have every day, is the understatement of the year.

Just having a bit of a laugh

I good friend of mine was looking at what has been going on in my life. As we were having a good laugh he came out and said “Wow your life is such a bloody soap opera” we had many laughs about it all. we even pointed out a few names for it and ideas for shows. One of the leads was me standing there in complete confusion at the fact that the weirdness is going on and that so many issues are happening.

Some country music at times, guest appearance of Puddles pity party and all he will do will give me the look of disbelief and pass along some comfort at the really weird times.

We laughed at name for the show like:

As Tasmania turns
Devils playground
Days of Tasmania
General confusion
The bold yet laughable

Of the list went on and on……

Show plots did not need to be though up as my real life had enough of them.

This was a funny conversation and well received. At times the tears were from the laughter……

Just a thought

What would you do if you were faced with this image? Would you lie to yourself and say that it is only an opinion and there is nothing wrong with it. Would you associate with the person who created this image? Would you allow your children to be involved with a person who uploaded this image? Now what would you do if that same person typed above it “burn baby burn”.10262131_10153380513184329_2787381093080619284_nSo lets review history 5,933,900 Jews were killed not fully at the hands of Hitler himself. The truth most likely none were killed by him. How many Native American Indians were killed in their genocide? How many Australia Aboriginals were killed during their genocide?  They were killed by cowards like the poster of the above picture. Filed with such overwhelming hatred that even the simplest logic that cannot justify posting the above picture. How would you respond to a friend who posted this filth. What if it was one of your children?

What would you do if the person who saved your life was Muslim. What would you do if you needed a transplant to save your life and the person who’s organ you were about to receive was a Muslim? Would you then allow you children to be involved with the person who posted the vile hatred? Would you accept that if you do nothing and accepted the above issue you are just as guilty of such hatred even without saying a word. Would you be like the guard on the wall who watched so many die.edmundburke377528By your deeds you shall be known and judged. I stand and speak out against such vile hatred. No Man, Woman or Child should be the target of such horrific violence by such as the coward that posted this filth. While I will not post this persons name those that read this should share it. Share it often, maybe then when that person who created it might see it, might change their ways. If not then good people should avoid the poster when the truth is place out for all to see. If your are a god fearing person then you and you alone by accepting this person as just an opinion will answer for the actions of the poster.