Teaching the children

So this few months in the children’s lives without ex-to-be has been hard on us. We have been trying to find ways to pay back God for all of his blessings. The one thing that I have found that the children are like Diamonds. Follow me on this for a second Where are diamonds found? What are they worth? Here is my answers Children are found everywhere but that can only be truly reached by hard hard work. Children are worth every second that you put into them. In the end teaching them thing such as love, kindness and forgiveness will work magic and wonders beyond beliefs.

What I am talking about is the fact that at the start of this year I have made a list of goals. One of those goals to start my year was to find a way to do service ever day. Now have I been able to do so, no. My goal was harder than I though it would have been. But I have found out that sometimes things happen in the most amazing ways. I set out what I wanted to do to the universe, god, or however heard me. Shortly afterwards a friend and his wife were looking for someone to help with a bread run on Friday nights. We once a fortnight I get a load of bread dropped off for me to had out to others who might be doing life a little hard. Sometimes it is very hard to do as I am stepping outside our comfort zone. But we have been doing it for close to 2 months now and wow have I seen some amazing children who show compassion beyond anything I could have every hoped for. I tell it you is such a sight to behold when my children say lets try that house.

This last week I was really hit in the gut when a family report said I was a bad parent. I was just so shocked after all we do as a family this (beeping) person had to gall to say I am doing a bad job. Please the evidence says more that this stupid person ever could. I make sure school is attended and I continue what I have been doing for the last five years of keep in touch with my children’s teachers. Yet even though someone has not been doing it at all the last two terms. Yet I am the bad parent, stupid piss ant writer of the report. Now the attorney is going to have to really go on the attack. I was hoping that would not have to happen.

Well tonight I am going to also do some work on the about me side of my blog. I feel that expanding on this part is going to help the book  a lot.


Wow, I thought I have seen it before and I have even felt its icy stares. But this week I was shocked that I have been held in its icy cold grasp. The pain that it caused was very shocking and it came from a very unlikely source a Family Assessor for the family courts here in Australia. I was told that I should be able to Trust this person that our evidence is sound and that my reasons for leaving the way we did. Well much to my surprise even though I have been the primary carer for the children and for my Ex-to-be. Yet this woman cause I am trans has ignored all the facts and said that our children would be better off with a person who has not even taken an interest in our children’s schooling.  Needless to say we will be fighting this and I will be seeking to find a way to point out this poor excuse of a person for who she really is. I just can’t believe that some of her lines in her report were so very bigoted and narrow minded. It just shocks me to the core.

If any of you readers know who to make a formal complaint that will make an Impact. Maybe even call this woman’s skills in to question let alone her practices as well. There is no room for person views and such unprofessional actions.

Wow did it really crush me. It was so very hurtful to think I trusted her. Wow it was like someone cut into my chest. I was just so hurt, I was so upset all it did was make me confused, angry and I even seconded guessed my own self. Lucky for me I have some really great friends who are my support network.

I have felt i9t at a local supermarket “Coles” who when I stood up and complained about how I was treated. They responded in such a way that I am pleased to say that they have even trained their staff better to0 make sure that it does not happen again and it has not Thank you Coles, I have even felt it once from some people, but I was not in the mood for them, so they got my double barrel of smart ass comment back. This is not a post what to say or how to defuse it.

I think I have found HELL

Yup, I am a Trans-woman fighting the good fight for the children’s future. So I have been running in and out of problems that the Ex-to-be starts and gets away with. She thinks she is smart and she thinks that it is causing me hell. Well I can be honest I am saddened by the loss of a person who once could have replaced the stars in the nights sky. Now I have seen the true you, well staying with you would have been HELL. Though I think I have this also to say…..

But I was going to say the real hell is when you as a parent works real hard to get the dinner thought up and underway then when you taste it you are in heaven you have done it all perfect. Then the kids sit at the table ready to enjoy what you have created then BAM it was not designed for childrens taste buds and not a single one of them like it

Been a couple of days break

Sorry it has been a couple of day but that is the way it is with kids. But lets look at what is going on first. We have been dealing with a solid brick of a human being lately. From not following orders to not calling our children then giving me a piss poor excuse and then thinking I would fluff it up to the children why she did not call them. How (BEEPing) hard is it to set an alarm on your phone to call the children on time. I hope she gets the point that I am no longer her Carer and I am not going to call her when she fumbles. Okay I am not going to rant on to much as it is not worth my time. Though I have had to tell Gabriel to watch his mouth when she said what he did when I told him about why she did not call “What a fucking liar”……. there is a lot of anger in him towards her. Most of it is due to her actions.

I have said in the past that that the US is a dangerous place to be in Transition. The Christian right is pulling a lot of purse strings. Take a look at the following news from Advocate.

REPORT: 2016 Is the Most Dangerous Year for Transgender Americans


Once again after you read that do you see why I am never going back, not even for a visit.



Having a little fun with life!


People are always asking me for my web address. So why not build a business card.



T-Shirt to boot as well.


I know that I am taking very well to the hormones. Body changes are going well well. I was thinking of have a shirt saying look up! Wow I caught a guy staring, Crap they are on a B cup and I was not dressed very high but it was so funny i just wanted to say Hi I am up here.

On top of it I was visiting my work today to say “Hello, I am coming back”. I love my job and going back is a huge blessing. I look forward to it soon I hope. There was this lovely person who has a very short memory and for about 5 minutes kept staring at me then walked up to one of the managers and asked “Is that person a Boy or a Girl?” such wonderful honesty I love my job. The Mgr gave her this wonderful explanation about gender and it was very beautiful. Though I am sad to say I don’t think it sunk in very well. The disability she has makes it hard sometimes for her to understand certain things. I do love her soul though.

Someone asked me if I would return

Well, what a question to ask me of all people. Hhow I can answer it……

Why should I?

My family for the most part have become narrow minded asses. 3 of them from what I can tell are humans and are somewhat open minded. 1 Is cool beyond the rest of them. So as far as family I would not be welcome by any of them in any way shape or form. I mean after this third strike with the in the family game of Baseball. I am going to be getting my Australian Citizenship and giving up my US. I am that unhappy with the lot of them. I thought it was bad when talking to my mum about a few things like the family was not going to tell me when one of my Parents passed away and that my mum and dad wanted it that way. To giving a Family heirloom to my Nephew that was to come to me. But hey I am in Australia so no need for a gun here. So the list goes on and on.

Is it safe?

Well Lets look at the level of Government, SD has passed a bathroom law Link 1 which bans Students in schools, they might try a law like what was attempted in WA, Link 2. Thank god it was defeated. Look at this news Link 3 , did you look real close as to where the deaths are from? 10 in the US vs. 1 in Australia. Add that with my issues in my Family I am not so sure I would be safe around any of them bar the 3.


Well I would not trust that I could find a job……… At least here in Australia the laws are such that you have a fighting chance. Mind you I have read and heard about a few people that have won that game of Roulette.

Safe Places to live?

I don’t know if you could point out that there is really a safe place from all that I read I have heard and seen a lot of violence towards Trans community in the US. Yeah I know that things here is Australia are not perfect but HELL i am safe in my home and I feel safe in my community.


Please leave it up to a the USA to come to Australia and say damn we like yours but…. Lets fuck it up completely. If I get sick I am safe, if I need my HRT I don’t have to sell a kidney for it. Healthcare cannot be refused because I am Trans or I cannot pay.

Yup you got it, I can’t see a reason why should I. There is no reason at all. Sorry I can’t do it to myself. I mean where would I end up, No money, No job, no food, no home, no friends, no family, no real healthcare, wow look at those “No’s”. Now add my children into the mix there is no way I would give up what we have here for nothing there. Sure there is Gay marriage but that cannot make up for so many negatives and if you look at the MANY churches that are trying to back state laws to revoke that in one form or another HELLO UTAH! Funny when you can link the Westbrough Baptist Church (The Haters), Catholic Curch and The Mormons all have in common. Wow I never though I would say that the Mormons and Westbrough are common allies, EEKKKK!