Ooops… I thought I went to far, nope

Oh Sandra (Beep) yes I know it only takes one time to ruin a child’s life. My little angel was sexualy assaulted two years ago by a neighbor guess what HE pulled her little wings off. This little girl was completely different than she is today cause of this fucking person. BTW until you as a parent walk this fucking hell of a road don’t you fucking dare to place me as a fucking perp! I would do anything to cut his balls off and gut him like a stuck pig, if I was given the chance. But I obey the law, even when they did not charge him. Btw he was not trans he was strait! There is the fucking stupidity……. Walk one mile in my shoes before you think you can judge me on any level. If you think I made the above up, read my blog.

I replied to a post that she choose to put on the net to which a friend shared.


I posted my reply to it as can be seen on this post

Then a reply top my post to which I was not able to copy was something along the lines of it only takes one to ruin the life of a little girl. I really got upset cause of what happened to my child, my little angel. I replied to her post a bit heavy but at the time seemed what was the right thing to do so I posted the following back at her post with….

“Oh Sandra (Beep) yes I know it only takes one time to ruin a child’s life. My little angel was sexually assaulted two years ago by a neighbor guess what HE pulled her little wings off. This little girl was completely different than she is today cause of this fucking person. BTW until you as a parent walk this fucking hell of a road don’t you fucking dare to place me as a fucking perp! I would do anything to cut his balls off and gut him like a stuck pig, if I was given the chance. But I obey the law, even when they did not charge him. Btw he was not trans he was strait! There is the fucking stupidity……. Walk one mile in my shoes before you think you can judge me on any level. If you think I made the above up, read my blog.”

I remembered the post all day in fact I felt a bit guilty so I went back to say sorry. But the post was deleted and I  was blocked. I wanted to know who she was I had this feeling that I should dig a bit deeper, half the reason was she had a very unique name. I will call her who she is cause she is a public figure in Washington State. My thoughts are if you are a public figure and you post filth. Sandra Belzer Brendale is Washington State RLC Chair and national RLC board member and a Constitutionalist and a Certified Instructor for the Center for Self-Govenance. Funny thing is as a Constittutionlist she was unwilling to agree that “all men are created equal and enjoy the same freedoms that she enjoys everyday.

But the funny thing is that like all good cockroaches once the light is turned on they run and hide. So now as was thinking that I needed to say sorry I was blocked and the post was deleted. SO I am sharing this with you cause I feel like the light should never be put out. If you are going to be a political leader and you put junk out others should know about what you have done. It now in your hands readers of America don’t accept your wannabe leaders. If you are in Washington State make some noise. Leaders who are bigots have no place in the modern world. We left the the deep south for a reason. There was no place forwhites only black segregation in the world and good people did what was right. There is no need for it to begin once more.

What has happened to what is not the Republican party. It is so very shameful that when the lights are turned on they run and hide.

There are times I really am glad I left the US. Even more that I left a place that panders to the old days Bastardswhen the KKK had power. Yeah the KKK is small to what it once was but it is now replaced with people like Sandra and that tool Cruz who is running for President of the US. These people used to hide and say it was for God and Country. Now they change a few things and Say you want you wives and Daughters to be safe. WAIT one little Minute They used to say that about the Blacks as well. Remember on that post I said have many of the leaders in the Senate in the US were charged with sex or bathroom crimes, they were all Republicans as well.  How should it go…


Just’a good ol’ boys
Always hiding their crimes
Beats all you never saw
Once they removed their little cowls
They used day since they was born

Swearing their Straight, their bathroom ain’t safe
Makin the laws
Someday someone should rise to get ’em
But the law never will

Makin’ their way
Telling their lies
That’s just a little bit more
Than any real person buys

Makin’ their way
The only way they know how
That’s just a little bit
That the law will allow.

I’m ain’t a good ol’ boy
My momma raised me right
They keep a showin the bathroom on TV

Cause the truth ain’t in sight


Well that is the end of my rant, but I am still pissed about the Cockroach, the one got away…..


Why would you share this with me?

Why would you share this with me? Why would you as a friend who I have known since I was 16 feel this way. Do you really think that low of me? Do you really think I am not trust worthy to be using a toilet next to your child or grandchild. Do you not remember the past when you had my back and I had yours. When my mum passed away and I called you as soon as I knew. Before she passed I gave you heads up so you could go say goodbye as well. Please think of my feelings before posting such hate, thanks ahead of time.

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Enough said.

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Carl (Beep) Latrines in combat zones were gender neutral.

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Aleana Robins
Aleana RobinsI am going to throw out some shocking numbers for you to think on as this stupid bathroom issue takes over the United States. The chance of being born as a Transgender is 0.03% the chance of meeting one is 0.00003% (meeting does not mean seeing them on tv). Out of 318.9 million people there are only about 96,000 trans persons living in the US ranging in age from 0-??. That also does not mean that they are out of the closet so to speak. There has never been a Transgender sex crime in a restroom though from 1998 to current there have been 3 federal Republican legislators convicted of Sex crimes in the bathrooms, in 2009 Dennis Hastert (R-IL) was charged with trying to coverup a sex crime with a student (age and Name not released due to being a MINOR). Really think about the last time someone took a look at you in the bathroom and thought….. Or when was the last time you were in a bathroom and thought……… If I am in a stall the last thing I am thinking of is sex. I am more concerned about it being clean, eww. But hey when was the last time I committed a crime? When was the last time you saw someone being treated as a Black person in the south in the early 1900’s? So with those said who is safer, a Law maker or a Transperson odds are in favor of the Trans community hell at 0.00003% you might never know…..Whoops to late surprise i’m a 0.03% person and my police record is 100% clean. Did you know in the year 2014 shemale porn was one of the highest searches done on the internet in fact pornhub had a 191% increase form 2013. The best thing you could hope for from a Transwoman in the bathroom is a bit of fashion advice. Cause no one wants to see the Muffin top or the crack of your ass cause you have eat one to many times at Macca’s (MacDonalds)
Now mate I know we have been friends for years one could even call it a life time. But as a friend none of my other friends have ever shared this kind of junk. Please think twice before sharing it again and if you noticed I (Beeped) out all the last names and links to their Facebook, cause I am your mate.

Words that broke a heart

In a conversation  last night ex-to-be to our oldest son “I stopped loving your dad” while honest it should have been tempered with mercy. Sometimes we as parents go the one step to far, we never take the time and think about the impact of what we say to a child. I watched our son lose hope and fade into a dark place where he was not sure how to get out. I called out to him once he was done listening to what she had to say. He came over softly walking he stopped just in front of me and the heavens opened up and the tears began to fall. I grabbed him brought him close to my heart and he rested his head upon my shoulder and cried for what seemed a life time. It was all he could do, about 20 minutes later tears all dry I saw my son in a different light. Just a simple little boy who wanted an answer to a question which in his mind was simple and honest after his mother asked him what was wrong he said “can’t you and dad get back together?”.

To be honest I have fronted that very same question from him as well. To some point he is still wanting us to be a complete family again. I am not shocked that from my answers to him on this very same question he still misses the family as a whole. While I understand that to a child this is very simple, say your sorry hug and forgive. We tell our children that all the time. We are as parents far from willing or able to do it. I think where the break was when she said “Your dad never loved me”

A tear soaked shirt, a child says”Dad I know you loved mum, why would she say that”. Sometimes it is so hard to find answers to questions that you yourself don’t have. All I could do was to be honest and say “I don’t know”. The tears began once more. This time I cried with my heart broken child.

Tears are a wonderful way to clean the body of the pain felt by the soul. For the rest of the night he sat next to me just wanting to be loved and cared for. Bed time came and soon he was in dream land.

I love St Finn Barrs!

What….did you just read that? Yup you did it is such a great community. So many nice and wonderful people. I am shocking with names I always have been. I count my lucky stars that I have. Not once has my children been faced with even the slightest bit of bigotry. I have been met with respect at every turn by parents left right and center. Even if they did not like me I have not seen it from anyone. Yes, I know I break the norms but each and every parent there is breaking the norms by just being good people.

To be honest I was not sure if St. Finn Barr was the right place for the children and had I known that the staff at this school were so clued in my kids would have been here from the start.

Today, I was approached by a mum and we had this wonderful chat. I think I shocked her a bit I can be a bit of a chatterbox these days. But it was so wonderful to have a chat with another parent that is there. I am really amazed my these wonderful people. One mum tells me how to find a good way to keep the shine on my car, Another knows we do a bread run and lets me know where I can get more bread, another mum tells me how to help me cut out sugar from my diet (still a struggle) then I talked to her about cutting out caffeine, she took my advice and is giving it a go, and this list just keeps going. I look and think to myself how lucky and blessed I am. These people really are wonderful.

I look at bathroom laws, then look at others who are closed minded and then I come back to this……I feel so deeply sorry for those like me who do not have this blessing in their lives. Cause this acceptance is wonderful and shows to me Launceston is an wonderful place.

So if anyone who knows me and reads this, Thank each and every one of you. I mean that my life was not this great a year ago. I have such blessings and I hope others can be this blessed. Thank you Lucy (I remembered) you made this day!

I stand once more

Opps I meant this to be a post not a page……..

I did say last night I had a feeling this would go on…..Please I know I am possibly talking to a wall. Though there might be other readers who might learn something or understand more from what I have written. The reason I stand is simple “We all Matter”.
Dianne L(beep) Aleana Robins your sickness makes you think your circumstances compare to women’s suffrage or civil rights. This is the victim game you love to play. You have never been suppressed, you have a right to own property, you have the right to vote, you have every single right any other man in the US has, so you cannot even pretend to know what women went thru to fight for their rights, nor can you understand what black people went thru breaking the chains of slavery. Your chains are self imposed. And yes, you cannot pick the Bible apart, therfore you know your choice is a sin, if you truly had the Holy Spirit indwelled in you, He would be directing you away from your worldly sinful choice.

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Aleana Robins
Aleana RobinsDianne L(beep) oh I am sorry you misunderstood my replies. At no time have I ever said I am a victim or Ill. In fact what you see as an illness I see as a blessing. Everyday I thank God for who I am. I Find peace where many find conflict. I am concerned that you feel it was a battle for woman suffrage and not for the rights of others. Is it not the right of every person not only to vote but to live without being marginalized, this is not a victim stand it is simply a fact. Every person no matter who they are, no matter how they identify as have the right live life to its fullest. I have studied the Bible Old and New Testament, the Book of Mormon, Koran (small parts) and a few other religious texts, one cannot truly understand God in any form without knowing that he above all told us that we must love, he also showed that by the many examples of his prophets from Moses to Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha to those who profess love for all. If you have missed that point in the bible’s and other texts then you have missed the core Value. Yes I even know that he is also a Jealous God as well. I know more than most Blacks who have rights above what my Ancestors did for your information while I live in Australia I am part of the Native American Tribe called the Cherokee. So I do know what it is like to fight for my rights. I am also a survivor of Domestic Abuse so I know what it is like to be a victim. But I am not a Victim make no assumptions on that. I am a SURVIVOR. I do know what it is like to be the major support for my children they too are Survivors. My replies to you have been in love nothing more, yet you have stood at every turn calling out names and accusations without evidence without understanding. There are very few people in the Trans community who wish to thrust down your throat anything. There are many in the Trans Community and supporters (including some churches, Presidents, Popes) who demand the rights that you have to live without being harassed for us. Now I say this out of love for you, no anger, no hate just simple love. If you would take the time and read my blog you might understand more than you currently do. The Arguments of Science are being proven that there is a lot we don’t understand about Gender and Sexuality. If you “believe” in God and go to church you might want to review how you leaders feel about Trans persons. (unless your part of the Westro’s Baptist Church) you might be shocked at what they feel God says about Trans persons. It should also be said without Truly know your God you should be careful to speak on his behalf. Even I with my vast understanding of the texts am not willing to do. I wish you well and I hope you have a wonderful day.
Dianne, this part is here only in my blog if you take the time and read. I have learned of many many years of studying that I see no color of skin that matters less, I see no gender that matters less than another as well. I stood by my best friend (ex-to-be) as we lost who she was to a horrific illness. I stood by as we were abused, I forgave and still forgive what we went through. I stood by my youngest daughter when she was sexually assaulted I gave my chest for her to cry upon as well as her mother tried. I continued championed my children when their mother stopped. I fight every day the courts to protect them, cause in many ways the court still have a hard time seeing that men can be abused as well as women. So to do Trans people, abuse is horrific no matter what form it takes. If you have ever walked a mile in my shoes then you might not be sitting where you are thinking like you do.
I read a quote a long time ago that challenged my shelf of beliefs. I would like to share it with you and then add a small twist to it at the end “God is as God does, man aspires to be God” (what God you might make Good or Evil depends upon your actions). Think about the quote cause I am not saying we are going to be a God I am saying by trying to live like him we aspire to be like him. My add-on is that they way we live when we look at God will decide Good or Evil.
I don’t wish to be god nor do I speak for him I think he has many that have tried to in the past. Dianne I really do wish you well. I hope that you enjoy the rights that you so commonly take for granted. Some day you might have to fight for them as well. As it was once said BE kind on the way up the ladder, cause you might meet the others you have passed on the way down.
Find peace and have a great day……Ally

I said he was my Hero

In a blog a few weeks ago I talked about Gabriel being one of my heroes in my life. He saved his sister two years ago from being raped. Today he proved he is her hero once more. At school today three girls were giving Niamh a hard time and I do mean a hard time. Gabriel stepped in and put these mean girls in there place. I was glad to hear from his teacher that he did not get mad and that her did not lose his temper. Gabriel and I had a talk about how she thinks of him even when she is mad at him Niamh loves him without end. Tonight Gabriel sitting on the couch Niamh leans over it Grabs Gabriel by the neck and says “I love you, Gabriel” my heart melted. Gabriel looked at me just smiled and said “I love her you know”. My kids ROCK!

A friend shared this video today it sure does fit Gabriel. Good Job son.

Odds are

Odds are, So today I was thinking over what I said in the last two posts. Something hit me as I was waiting for the children to get out of their classes at school. I was watching Mum’s and Dad’s picking their children up. This cute little girl was running around happy to be alive. Then it hit me look at these wonderful families and there children. The odds are in their favor that non of them will have a child just like me. Considering that the odds are at extremely rare at a HUGE 0.03% holy shit we can’t even get a 1% and states are making laws about us HA ha ha. Why is that funny look at climate change proof is higher than that and we can’t get these morons to make laws about that.

I watched and thought wow how lucky I am to be me. I know in the past I have cursed this body that I was born with due to all the struggles. Maybe I need to change the way I look at my body and soul in a different light. I am an amazing 0.03% of the people born. I had a 91% change of being Right handed. I was born in the US odds for that are 4.5%.

Lets have some fun


And I am 99.97% less than that. Wow it was crazy think this stuff. I was really blown away when I found the number of people born just like me, mind you I have read the highest odds are at 5%. But still lets look at this whole odds thing in a bit more of a different light. in our life time it is safe to say we will meet apx. 80,000 people over our 80 Years.

Are you ready to be blown away…….This if my math is right you have reached an amazing set of odds. Cause the chance of meeting me are 0.00003% now I am not going to do the math for you it hurt my head as well and I am thinking I could be wrong, lol. That is an amazing number.


Even More AMAZING,


Welcome to my friendship circle. I hope you have had a wonderful day. I know I have!

The activist in me, OOooooo…….

Dianne (Beep) It’s shameful that a transgender woman isn’t happy believing in his/her heart that he is exactly the same as a real woman, the simple fact is he is not and never will be genetically a “real” woman. Real women grow breasts that comfort and nourish their young. They have a womb, they begin menstruating as a young teen and from that moment on she knows she has the power to create another human, whether she acts on it or not it is her choice. Most women conceive, carry and deliver a child from her body, nothing in the world compares to that. You might like to think it does, but no man could ever understand how it feels for 9 months to share your own body with another human, it cannot be explained, it must be felt to truly comprehend. Real women bleed, they ache, they swell, their bones are smaller, their muscles weaker, yet they care for the entire family, and most have a career on top of that. Women are the soft spot on which their husbands and children land when they need comforting. So no, no man can understand what it is truly like to be a woman, and no, no woman can understand what it is like to truly be a man.

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Aleana Robins
Aleana Robins Dianne I respect you views, but at the same time you are missing major points that is part of every Trans it is that we have not felt “right” since most of us can remember. This is not a choice we are making we did not get a choice. I bet if you asked any Trans we all would say, yes life would be easier if we could stay the same as everyone else.
Though staying the same is not a choice we have if we want to thrive within our own skin.
Yes you are 100% correct we don’t know what it is like to be what we were not born with. At the same time we do not know what it is like to be what we are born with. I identify as a Transwoman, I was born with the parts of a man. Though in my mind I never was a man. This will never make sense to CIS gendered people cause you don’t have the issue. We are fully aware that we are the ones who do not fit into both sides of the binary.
So what do we do? First we try to find some group that we identify with the closest for me I was always Women. I know my limits but at the same time those limits are only placed there by those who have never understood what it is like to be a soul without the correct home.
I would like to welcome you to read my blog it is about my Transition and what I go through on a day to day basis. I think once you take the time and learn about me you will see that I am not any different than you. Have a peek at www aleanasjourney com. If you have any questions while reading my blog ask me I will do my best to answer. I hope you have a wonderful day.
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Aleana Robins
Aleana Robins Dianne L(beep) Once again I respect your voice and the way you are feeling. You have asked and made a lot of statements and I would love to try to help your understanding. First I respect you when you talk about your confidence in your gender role. There were days as a youth when I begged for God to make me just like you. Now we need to air out a few small misconceptions. I am not here to tell you tell you how to think or feel when it comes to you being the Gender role that you are comfortable with. These are your rights in a free country. The points that you bring up with your regards of God. There is a huge hole in this argument as mankind in one form or another has played the God game. God, in agreement with you (yes, I am Christian) has created each and everyone of us. All of us with our flaws and strengths. I want you next time you need to get an Immunization think about the idea that someone played god to save lives and you have played god to save yours. f you are going to use the God/Bible attack you might want to review the words on women, adultery, blacks, and slavery……..many many more. One who pick and plucks through the word of god is creating a sin as well. Yes I know your next argument, so without going through verse by verse and people thinking this is just a religious rant. No one needs to cast that stone.
I am not denting that DNA is the structure to which we are built upon, but if you are going to take the Argument of God then you must agree that DNA is flawed, do you see where this part of the argument could go? You cannot argue the God line and switch back to the science line as well. Cause the next part is an attack upon the structure of mankind to understand God and the written word or you have to look and think that science is flawed. There is only a stalemate to this line of thinking.
Now the last part of you reply was a line that you might want to rethink ” Once we choose to demand people accept us for what we want to be, instead of accepting” So the status Quo was back in the 50’s still allowed race discrimination. When did women start voting 1894-1923. Is the status quo that you are requesting what you really agree to?

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Aleana Robins
Aleana Robins Dianne L(beep) To be honest I am not here to force you to agree with me. I am only asking you to rethink your reasons for the you points of view. There is nothing wrong with saying “I just don’t like it” or “It’s not for me”. We should always be careful when we need the past to support our stance in the present.
Now I understand that I am speaking in a “We” when in truth I am speaking for “Me”. I hope she takes the time and has a read my be even ask me questions. As I have said in the past I am very happy to answer.Well I have a feeling like this person is going to drag this on once they read what I wrote, lol. I though I would share this with you as pointing out that you can stand up for yourself without being militant towards others. Allow them the right to feel like they do. We too have a right to disagree.
I hope your day is filled with love and happiness…..

They are home….

Well it is nice to have them home again. So that we just sat down and had dinner in the living room talking and enjoying good food. Bed time came and we were happy once more. Kids were happy to be home.

It is strange that I missed the snoring of the children and when it was back I missed it so much I stay awake in my bed and enjoyed it. My heart was full to the brim.

Gabriel told me today that the mum of one of his friends does not like me. We had a chat about it and I told him “mate that is okay I never asked her to like me, all I did was when she was in need I gave her help. If she does not like me it weighs not on my soul cause I am at peace”. Gabriel listened took what I said and asked “What is it like to be at peace with her hating you” I told him “Peace is a wonderful thing, it comes at a cost. That cost is not mine to pay, I have paid kindness for the hatred and I will not hate for another persons problems”. He looked at me and stated that he though he understood, we chatted a bit more and he repeated what he thought I said back. He was very close and close in that matter was good enough for Karma to be happy.


Back at my favorite place

So here I am on a new day with good friends to surround me. The board mills market. I love this place for a few reasons. It has spawned an amazing new growth let’s share………


Wow, this is the start of something wonderful. Now they are adding a bar….. This is not the finished product but it is a start. I have been told of what is coming. If you want a place to sit and enjoy a wonderful afternoon with food that is to die for. Simple yet that sense of comfort food.


The inclusion cafe is still here as well. Good hot chocolate and coffees. Wonderful company.


I am so excited for my friends and what they are building. With James making the bar it will be am amazing place to relax and enjoy time with good friend. If you are in Tasmania or visiting come for a peek have a seat. Come now and watch the birth of something wonderful. It is not like surprise it’s here type place your input and ideas are listened to. I can’t wait a mini stage is in the works as well. So live comfort music at times. I am loving this place for writing good people and good company. What else could a person want for a Relaxing place on a Saturday.

Well I would write about something but I am so happy right now I think someone might be confused. I am not going to wear black in respect for my mum. I’m not going to look about it as well. I am just going to live and have a good life. I know that my mum never understood me but why sook about it. I am going to live and be happy. Thanks God for who I am……