I just saw some more success

I have been doing these face / chin wraps. As I was putting on my Makeup for a Job inter view I noticed that something I tried had worked. Okay at a Transwoman there are many things I would love to change about my appearance Boobs, Waistline, hips well some thing that I never looked at was my eyes. You see I have hooded eyes oh my do I hate that but I never thought if something could be done about that. To the point more what could I do? Doing this chin wrap I have been very happy with the results so far. I have been taking the excess and wiping it on my Forehead, that has been amazing and my skin has never felt so tight and soft. I have stayed away from my eyes just cause I wear glasses not don’t want to risk it getting in my eyes causing damage. But Sunday I was not paying attention to where I was wiping the excess. Oops you got it I wiped it on the hooded part of my eyes (no I still need my glasses, damn). But today two days later I am getting ready for a job interview and I was looking at my eyes getting ready for putting on Makeup. I noticed that the hooded part where I wiped this excess on to was reduced. I cannot wait to show the end results at the end of next week. I hope you are ready for a shocker. Cause I am ready for it too.


Have a great day!

Well I’m back in the Saddle again

Well I am doing something I love Project Management. Yup[ I have taken on a client who needed some help. So much work to do. Well as I was busy working the first day I got to see the huge task that was ahead of me and what we had to get done. SO exciting really I live for this stuff. This time I made a promise not to be to blunt. Last time I fixed a project I called the CEO and idiot point blank to his face, not once, not twice, but three times. Needless to say after my rescue was done I was not offered a position.
Yup I have learned that not everyone can handle my being bluntly honest even when they are in the wrong. I still hold fast that he was. All I could see was every time he talked in this meeting with about 15 others was dollar signs pouring out of his mouth. SO even to this day what was a noble idea to fix the issue in the state I am in costs WAY to much cause of this Idiot.
Lucky for me this new project is not filled with Idiots. It is a well thought out idea that has been in need of a bit of help. I love this kind of stuff.

While I was helping out I received a call and invited into an Interview. Ooooo I am so excited about this. I am not going to tell what it is until I have it. I so want this role and they know all about me being trans and all the issues I have with being a single parent. Though a Job I love the idea. This helping out with the project management role was to get me in the mind set of working once more.

I so love the path I am going down right now. Lets hope that it continues. Thank you God

I am I trans enough?

In a support group I am part of, this video was shared. I think it might be nice to share it on a wider scale. I have been subscribed on her YouTube channel for a while now and have not seen this one yet. It has helped me a bit and I will explain below why it has helped me.

So I have asked this question of myself several times. I have been questioned about why I have made this choice cause of the same issues. I have had the Ex-to_be and a few of her friends report that I was not dressed in female attire.
When I made the choice to Transition I know that once I announced that I was Trans and started down the path of Transitioning there was no turning back as I have a personal motto that I have lived by for a very long time, Say what you mean, mean what you say. When I started my Transition I got rid of all my stumbling blocks that might have caused issues in my life. Some of these are going to be hard to understand unless you have walked my path. But I feel like it might help someone understand me better if they knew what I have given up. These are not in order as far as time lines go.
The First step in my Transition was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life to this point. I said Enough, I’m not going to take it anymore. What I mean is very simple somethings that men do not talk about is being abused by their partner. It is just not done, it is even worse for Transwomen. Who in their right mind would listen to me / us (By the way, stop thinking like that, people listen, people help! I am proof!). I stood up for myself, but all it did was make things worse for me until I made the choice to no longer be the brunt of her Jokes, Bullying, Threats, Name calling, degrading comments and lies. At some point I had to stand up and I had to say NO. That was the scariest night of my life, the night I said get in the car children and we left.

KaSecond, I got rid of every piece of male clothing at the same time of telling the truth about what was behind the mask I had wore for so long. I knew there was going to be some losses and hurt people. What did I expect? To be honest, I expected my blood family would not like it to much, but being blood they would help me in this time (sadly I was wrong). I expected to lose friends (was scared of this part). I had 7 yes 7 close friends Alan T, Rowan M, Liam G, Graham M, Gordon & Karina J, and Jackie L. Losing these core friends scared me to death. In fact to me losing them would have been more hurtful than losing my wife (she lost me). Sometimes when you toss a bunch of coins in the air and they land you call heads I win tails, I lose. When they settle you see what has happened. I am in tears writing this part, I am the luckiest person I know cause not only did the 7 core friends stay they proved that each one of them are and should fever be known to me as the magnificent 7.
The first few months after we left and I went though the hell that was coming to terms with the abuse that the children and I went through. These Seven grew to 8, then to 9 then to 10 then so on and so on. But at the core of it all 7, 7 friends who supported me when all my family left…… If lies were cats someone would be a litter…..Truth always like the cream rises to the top. Thanks to my 7 friends for knowing what was truth from lies. Good bye to those who can’t tell.

Third, I did not give up who I am, I let who I am be free…….I still like some guy things, and I still like to do a few guy things. F*&^ing Deal with it! I know there are lots of women who do the same. To me they are still women.

Forth, The friends I lost were replaced by some of the best people I have ever met, who if I never took this trip would never have met. As well as catching up with an old one. Here it Goes Wayne, James, Anita, Craig, Jason, Nichole and Anna-lisa. Yup I have left off a few but this was not cause I don’t think that they did not impact my life as Ally (Aleana) these ones just added a bit more support for someone going through a shitload of pain.

SO there you see I am Trans enough cause I say I am, and so do my friends and children.


Shameless plug

Well in case you did not know Saturday I am going to once again be at Board Mills market. Come and have a chat. Enjoy the stalls they have great coffee and even a bar now. I know a market with a bar that’s something new.

its at 9 Killafaddy Rd, Launceston Tas…….

Yup I will admit to it the owners are great friends. Hope to see you there

Wrap it up!

Okay last night I did a third face wrap and a second wrap on my belly. I am telling you right now this product works wonders.

I am not going to post photos yet as I am going to wait until I am done with the goal I have set and then if this progress keeps going I will share it then.You will be in for a shock as I am.

Dear Dad, an open letter to start

Hello Dad,

I wanted to write you a letter even though I know we talk. Look you asked me to check my schedule for a timeline when you could come down for a visit. I was looking at December this year cause the children will be here until the 25th at 5pm. We could have a wonderful time. I want you to know that I am so sorry that mum passed away. I know you must miss her a lot. I will try to cook a big Christmas dinner with all the fixings that you so love. I don’t know if I can make it feel like mum did though. But you will have a good time and the kids would love to get to know you.

Now dad on a more serious note. I love everything you ever did for me even the times when I was a royal pain in the ass and when we did not see eye to eye. When you come you must know that things in my life are not the same as you might have hoped for. I no longer go by my Birth name. Please don’t get me wrong I have a huge respect for that name and it goes even deeper than that. I don’t live my life like that as well. As you know I have told you and mum that I am Transgender and that I am for once being true to myself and no longer hiding. I don’t really dress they way I used to as a few things physically have changed as well. When or should I say if you come you will welcomed with open arms of love and happiness this has not changed but I do not look like or act like the person you once thought you knew.
I don’t drink or do drugs. But I am not going to go back to the church you raised me in. I don’t fit in their mold  I am not asking you to change the way you talk with me or address me. Though I leave that up to you. I still go by Al or Ally or my name is Aleana. Most friends don’t make it formal here is Australia, they call me Ally.
This time when you come we will go do a few things together and treat you a bit better. I think you will see a bit of a difference in me as far as I am Happy. I have a list I would love to go see with you. I hope you can plan for a month I would love to have you here that long.
In case you don’t recognize me I will be holding a sign with your name on it just to make you feel special. I wonder if I could find a limo driver outfit, ha ha.

Just know this at the core of me is me happy to see you happy to have you here.

Love always,

Ally (Al)

I made this an open letter not cause my dad will read this (cause he does not do the internet very well). I did this in hopes that if others who might be walking a path just like me. Who want to open that line of communication with a parent can see that it is hard and that it can be done with love and kindness. Our parents at the core, do love us even though they find it hard to accept us cause seeing the physical side is what they saw when we were born.  When we hid, we hid also from them so they might not really know how to deal with the real us. I am trying myself to be more open and honest with my Father. I know my dad is a bit of a mans man. SO he might have a hard time but then again he might not. It is a risk worth taking cause I love my parents no matter what.

This is humor with a good point

I love the knock at the door, you peek hoping it is not them. SURPRISE its them again. Yup Quota time. So here I am Transwoman they don’t know what to say or do. Priceless you know the advert. New Dress…..$80, New Heels……$65, meeting the door knockers who’s faces drop and become speechless…….Priceless, PMSLOL. I don’t get the pleasure of a good old Bible bash much any more. Though saying that I can be stirred into one when some stupid person tries to quote the bible saying “your going to hell”. I love it, okay to me it is so much fun. But these days the internet has spawned a whole new breed of Bible jackasses. They feel like this and look up on the internet to find bible verses to provide them with a sort of righteous bigotry. While forgetting that all the lines they are using was used against many shocking issues in the past. Even though the killing of the Jews = Bad, Ownership of a Woman = Bad, Slavery = Bad, 10 commandment = Bad when broken, they are willing to use them for their purpose and what about those seven deadly sins. Then you have morons who with one hand hold the bible saying that someone is doing wrong like the lady in Target.

Oh course that while running her mouth off calling people sinners she has forgotten to look at her own self.

Pride is excessive belief in one’s own abilities, that interferes with the individual’s recognition of the grace of God. It has been called the sin from which all others arise. Pride is also known as Vanity.

Envy is the desire for others’ traits, status, abilities, or situation.

Gluttony is an inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires.

Lust is an inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.

Anger is manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath.

Greed is the desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual. It is also called Avarice or Covetousness.

Sloth is the avoidance of physical or spiritual work.

So which of these can be seen in her? Hmmmm Far be it from me to judge but the truth in the matter is that when you look at the coin of religion and religious fervor that some of these people are spouting forth it calls in to question many things.

Now yes we as a society we have grown it feels like at times these Bible Jackasses have reverted to the dark ages. Now I am not saying the person was stupid. But when you misquote something, Shaaa……. Go back to school and study……..History unless you learn from it you are doomed to repeat it. FFS I don’t mind a mental argument in fact I live for others opinions, but dear God don’t come to a mental battle unarmed. Don’t knock me for being true to myself, god never did and never will. Find me proof that Trans people are sinning or going to hell. You can’t it is not there. Not one bible verse. But to be honest if you quote from the bible and you say that Christ did away with all the laws in the Old Testament then you have to through out  ‎Leviticus 20:13 , If you think the one from ‎Hebrews 13:1-5  will solve the problem then you are needing to reread it again. It does not at any time say anything about it. SO then you revert to the usage of ‎1 Corinthians 6:9-11 which does state men sleeping with men. But at this point you are going to start “Slandering” people who are gay. Wait did I just point that out to you yup I sure did Slandering is the same as men sleeping with men…..Ooops bet you never thought of it that way. Oh wait Greedy is in there are well wow how many church leaders are walking that path? SO next you are going to try to use ‎Romans 1:26-28 where once again it does talk about Men with Men but only as a shameful issue. I must point out there there is and was a HUGE differences between a SIN and a SHAMEFUL act. You see we can pick apart the bible without really looking at the core of the verses that are being used.

Oh and one last thing and I love this clip…..

Matthew 22:37-40 (KJV) – “Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself.

SO in the end there you have it a great way to point out those that judge others on there deeds and actions need to be mindful of their actions. Not walking through Target in protesting things that she does not fully understand. While I know that many readers are not going to church or believe in the ways that the churches profess their types of beliefs. Heck who can blame people for not going as when it come down to it so many so called Christians don’t  even know the book they are preaching from.

Have a good day.

Updated About me

Well my good readers I have added about 1k of writing and a few photos of my life. More to come. I hope as I start adding the photos you can start grabbing a glimpse of my life in full color and in words. Please don’t judge the trailer trash photo, but you do anything you can to make it out of Uni alive, lol.


Yup it is all in the sound, lol. Well today the kids had lesson two in JUJITSU. Wow Gabriel is a natural at it. Give him a few months of it and I look forward. I bet he will be proud of himself in a year.

Niamh, well we have seen a shift tonight in her. Niamh being a bit timid she tends to crumble under pressure. Tonight that changed, Pressure was applied and she got mad and did a better job in controlling her emotions. I know this will help her in a few months once she is able to control those emotions. I am sure she will be a very strong girl.

Hezekiah, was still a bit on the sidelines here and there but once he got moving it was all steam ahead.

This choice is going to pay off in the end….I am proud of them.

Okay yes I am Trans…..

Okay I am Trans I am happy with who I am now it has taken a long time to get here but I am.

I think sometimes people need to know that we are just as normal as other people are. I am going to put up a few messages that I have received. To me I was in complete shock……..

hhmmmm, if your still attracted to women then you should be a bisexual, do you still have a dick? I am very much attracted to a trans, I like the way they look, Even if we can’t date each other I would like for you to be my soulmate, I am interested in you, and I feel we can get along so easily, each time you write to me I feel that vibe and chemistry, sincerely I would want you to be my woman, No jokes, you are the iideal person I can get along with I like everything about you naturally.

MAY 6TH, 12:26PM

First I would like to say Thank you for being so kind and nice. Though when it comes to “Being” with someone. I think I am a bit old fashioned I want the courtship, I want to be treated like the Diamond I am. While I understand that there are a lot of Transwomen out there who don’t think they are worth that level of happiness. So they take the short cut to have someone accept them instead of respecting them. I am not built that way, I know my worth as a person. I know what the feeling of true love is and i demand that with the person who wants to share the children and my future.

MAY 14TH, 1:46PM

Hi Aleana, Good day to you, I am here for a serious relationship and find true love, I am ready to find a sincere woman interested in a romantic relationship, that would be my soul mate. I assume you are in search of something serious. Like I told you before I need a woman that is bold and courageous, I’m not really after beauty but someone with a good heart that is humble, faithful and sincere, but actually you look much younger than your age and your photo is good, although I have not dated anyone from your area before, but I’m open to new things and I’ll try, all we need is tolerance and understanding to build a good relationship . We can talk more often and learn more about us, but you are always free to share your life experiences. I want to find my soul mate, someone I can treat like a diamond, hope you are romantic and we can be more than friends, I want us to communicate more, What do you like in a man?
(Face Palm)
Now, lets take a look at what was said on a few levels. I respect everyone and the way they act and feel in this life it is not for me to judge. Saying that at times I don’t want to feel like an object or a sexual fetish. I started seeing how women feel when men act like they are gods gift to the world.
I think that people who are Cis-gendered need to know that just as Cis-gendered people we also have many different life styles. As for me I am the homebody not high fashion but not a slouch as well. I love the feel of nice clothes and shoes. I like the though of dating and getting to know someone as to jumping in to bed with them just after we have met. I find it hard to think like that. I mean I can count my sexual relationships on one hand and all of them have been special in one way or another. Here I am at 46 single wanting a relationship but at the same time not. I love the freedom of not having someone ask me if I still have my dick…..Wow that was way to much to ask. At what point even if I was a man could I handle a person being so upfront with a question like that. Freaks me out on so many levels.
I know people who I used to be with who now hop in to bed with others at the drop of a hat cause they are not secure with who they are at older ages. I ways that scares me as well, losing who you are because you don’t know who you are is so…….empty. Almost devoid of what makes me, me. I want someone in my life who is able to know me for an extended period of time before questions about sex or what is between your legs pop up.
I am finding that I am becoming more and more reserved as being a woman rather than a man that I was trying to be. I dress modestly, hell I even act modestly now. Where did the rebel without a clue go?