Updated About me

Well my good readers I have added about 1k of writing and a few photos of my life. More to come. I hope as I start adding the photos you can start grabbing a glimpse of my life in full color and in words. Please don’t judge the trailer trash photo, but you do anything you can to make it out of Uni alive, lol.


Yup it is all in the sound, lol. Well today the kids had lesson two in JUJITSU. Wow Gabriel is a natural at it. Give him a few months of it and I look forward. I bet he will be proud of himself in a year.

Niamh, well we have seen a shift tonight in her. Niamh being a bit timid she tends to crumble under pressure. Tonight that changed, Pressure was applied and she got mad and did a better job in controlling her emotions. I know this will help her in a few months once she is able to control those emotions. I am sure she will be a very strong girl.

Hezekiah, was still a bit on the sidelines here and there but once he got moving it was all steam ahead.

This choice is going to pay off in the end….I am proud of them.

Okay yes I am Trans…..

Okay I am Trans I am happy with who I am now it has taken a long time to get here but I am.

I think sometimes people need to know that we are just as normal as other people are. I am going to put up a few messages that I have received. To me I was in complete shock……..

hhmmmm, if your still attracted to women then you should be a bisexual, do you still have a dick? I am very much attracted to a trans, I like the way they look, Even if we can’t date each other I would like for you to be my soulmate, I am interested in you, and I feel we can get along so easily, each time you write to me I feel that vibe and chemistry, sincerely I would want you to be my woman, No jokes, you are the iideal person I can get along with I like everything about you naturally.

MAY 6TH, 12:26PM

First I would like to say Thank you for being so kind and nice. Though when it comes to “Being” with someone. I think I am a bit old fashioned I want the courtship, I want to be treated like the Diamond I am. While I understand that there are a lot of Transwomen out there who don’t think they are worth that level of happiness. So they take the short cut to have someone accept them instead of respecting them. I am not built that way, I know my worth as a person. I know what the feeling of true love is and i demand that with the person who wants to share the children and my future.

MAY 14TH, 1:46PM

Hi Aleana, Good day to you, I am here for a serious relationship and find true love, I am ready to find a sincere woman interested in a romantic relationship, that would be my soul mate. I assume you are in search of something serious. Like I told you before I need a woman that is bold and courageous, I’m not really after beauty but someone with a good heart that is humble, faithful and sincere, but actually you look much younger than your age and your photo is good, although I have not dated anyone from your area before, but I’m open to new things and I’ll try, all we need is tolerance and understanding to build a good relationship . We can talk more often and learn more about us, but you are always free to share your life experiences. I want to find my soul mate, someone I can treat like a diamond, hope you are romantic and we can be more than friends, I want us to communicate more, What do you like in a man?
(Face Palm)
Now, lets take a look at what was said on a few levels. I respect everyone and the way they act and feel in this life it is not for me to judge. Saying that at times I don’t want to feel like an object or a sexual fetish. I started seeing how women feel when men act like they are gods gift to the world.
I think that people who are Cis-gendered need to know that just as Cis-gendered people we also have many different life styles. As for me I am the homebody not high fashion but not a slouch as well. I love the feel of nice clothes and shoes. I like the though of dating and getting to know someone as to jumping in to bed with them just after we have met. I find it hard to think like that. I mean I can count my sexual relationships on one hand and all of them have been special in one way or another. Here I am at 46 single wanting a relationship but at the same time not. I love the freedom of not having someone ask me if I still have my dick…..Wow that was way to much to ask. At what point even if I was a man could I handle a person being so upfront with a question like that. Freaks me out on so many levels.
I know people who I used to be with who now hop in to bed with others at the drop of a hat cause they are not secure with who they are at older ages. I ways that scares me as well, losing who you are because you don’t know who you are is so…….empty. Almost devoid of what makes me, me. I want someone in my life who is able to know me for an extended period of time before questions about sex or what is between your legs pop up.
I am finding that I am becoming more and more reserved as being a woman rather than a man that I was trying to be. I dress modestly, hell I even act modestly now. Where did the rebel without a clue go?

Music is not a love, It’s a passion

I don’t really know why I am so hooked on music and sometimes it is the different styles that will pull me out of the dull-drums of normal music. Sometimes I search and search for the off the wall grab me and knock me in the head. For example

So I look and look for new styles that fuse one style with another and come out just like that one. I have been know looking on the YouTube for this crazy stuff.

I just keep growing my collection. There is a silver lining that my kids will have a huge love for music and they can make up for their own minds who is it that they love. I so love new styles that keep my mind rocking.

*****Well I am going to sneak in an update to the face wraps. I am so love the way my skin is feeling I think you might be as surprised as I am when I post the photos.****

Have a wonderful Day, be kind


Something lighter


Yup the wraps update is here, two face wraps done. I am not taking photos until it is all done but today a great friend did a bit of a head turn and said wow the chin looks great.

So two down and even I think it looks great……… if it keeps going this way I am going to be sold as a regular customer.


US politics

Why should you care? Well it is said that if the US sneezes the world catches a cold.


“Those who don’t know history are doomed to repeat it.”
― Edmund Burke

There is a few things going on in the US that people should be well aware of and mindful; of the possible impact. While you might say but we don’t live there, these issues don’t impact us. Well to a point this is true, but and this is a big BUT.

First at the current rate of actions the US is losing its title of Democracy. This can be seen in a few events that have taken place and might take place in a couple of months from now. What I am talking about is when George W. Bush Jr. ran for office as the President of the United States vs. Al Gore. What happened was the blur between the line of two branches of government the Legislative and the Executive. What happened was George Bush used the Legislative to decide who was the president of the US. When that was done the vote of the people for the people mattered nothing in fact you could have stayed home.

Okay so now you are saying that was then this is now. Well, I am going to tell you to have a long hard look at what is going on the the Democratic Race Hillary vs. Sanders whoever wins this will be going against Trump in the election in November. Right now There are several underhanded and dirty tactics that are being used to give Hillary a lead over Sanders. These two people running from state to state to have a vote off to see who is going to be going up against Trump. Now while this may seem like nothing it is even bigger of a problem than what ol’ Georgey  Boy did to Al (I invented the Internet) Gore.

If the Democrats cannot run a fair election at this level how can they be trusted in a general election. So lets say Hillary becomes the next president of the US. The debate of the living wage that is going on in the US will mean nothing. The wars will continue and the corruption will not stop. Big banks and Big companies will still make the choices that they have been doing all along and the little man will struggle and eventually fail cause the deck is stacked against them.

Okay so how does that impact Australia. Very well the US and Australia are very closely tired. If fact it could be said that in someways we are in the back pocket of the US. With the US falling to the big banks and big companies Australia is starting down that same path. It is so very scary. Where did Holden go? Where did Ford go? where are all these companies going? With the New trade agreements Australia is losing it grip of Manufacturing all together jobs are drying up faster than they are being made. Lets look at elections here in Australia we now are getting to a point where are picking the lesser of two evils.  The Medicare system is being dismantled bit by bit. Drug prices are rising fast. Going to the Doctor is going to cost more and more. The health of the people are going to start to decline bit by bit. Education is also being attacked prices are going through the roof. What happens when being educated is no longer a right but a privilege that not many will not afford.

Look at the whole stupid nightmare of the Bathroom laws in the US. Until this year Trans people have gone to the bathroom where they needed to. No one worried about us. We were hidden and we caused no problems. Laws are now being created for nothing more than a few religious nutters who are trying to say that they have to be. What is going on here is the removal of the line of separation of state and religion. Each being single and not meant to join together. We are even seeing this event happening in Australia with Gay marriage. The religious right are pushing agendas while claiming that such things like Safe Schools is harming children. When in fact while it is not prefect it is after all trying to save lives. Then I hear over and over again that there is a Gay agenda. I remember growing up hearing about “The Black Agenda”. FFS I love how white privileged bitches when others want the same damn rights as they have.

40% that is a huge amount of Suicides in the US for one group of people. Funny in Australia  we have a lower percentage cause of the inclusion of people. Yet ever since I have been in Australia I have heard “your an American” followed by a deep sigh. Then after getting to know me I hear “oh wow your the first American I did not want to strangle”. We end up having a talk about why. It is sad to say that over the last few years we have seen an increase in some of the actions of the US trickling down to Australia. I hope we don’t follow that slippery path that they are going down.

Well there is a long post hope you had a thought about what I said. I hope that in someways what I am saying is stirred up some anger. Cause anger makes action and actions yield results. Have a look at Bernie Sanders given him some support if you feel like it. He is running his campaign thanks to the people giving him $27 (US) dollars on average. I think he would make a great President and something that is not the same ol’ same ol’. If we support him it might trickle down to Australia and a few of the changes in the US might help us out here, leading by example.

Weekend comes to an end

One more step forward to being healed happened and I don’t care what she has to say. Yeah baby! I have been having issues with Facebook flashback. What I mean they have started doing this “Hey Ally, 1 year ago…….” and like a dumb ass I read it and then boom the good old memories start and woo hoo I am back where I was when I wrote it. Yup glad I don’t have war or drug flash backs cause these are messed up enough.

Well the ex will find out soon enough I got a new toy. This might boil her blood he he he. It’s Blue, I love the color of blue and I have never had that color. Wee!

Sometimes it is nice to say (BEEP)

Oh my gosh my boobs hate me right now Niamh elbowed me today. I about fell over in tears. I was able to remain calm. Oh pain that we are warned about but really are not ready for it at all. Tears did fall…..

We had a great weekend we were able to go on a play date with Niamh’s friend Chloe. What a nice family and so kind and down to earth. SO for a BUSY weekend being that it was a student free day and so we had three days, I so loved it.

This past week I had to put my foot down as I have been questioning that ex-to-be is wanting to take the kids back top our Lady of Mercy for school. I though it was just a story from Gabriel sometimes he has been doing those. So I took it with a grain of sand. Well this changed when on this week she said to out Daughter that she will be changing them back to Deloraine. Well I told the children no matter what I am not going to let that happen they have been building good friends and we are working so hard in school for the courts to do that it would not be in their best interest.

I have spent the weekend cleaning and cooking rinse and repeat……

I have also been cleaning out the boxes of crap that I have collected over so many years. I have also been looking at it is the way that if I have not used it in years I am not going to be doing so anything soon and I need to stop looking at the stuff thinking I get to that. I had these real leather Saddle bags that I gave to a good friend who I know will make a new story for them. They have had such a life already.

I’m not one for putting stickers on cars. I find most of the ones are so tacky and have no real point. I had a laugh one time there was this person who though it would be cool to place a Harley-Davidson sticker on a Nissan car. It was so out of place…. Even those stickers that say funny crap like “honk if your horny” like anyone is ever going to do that. But I support my children’s school 100% so I put one on my car cause I am proud of my children. I love what the Sea Sheppard is doing since our governments are to scared to do something, so I put there sticker on my car cause I donated to the cause. But like all sticker owners when they fade take them off.

Well that is the weekend update…..

Wait not it is not Tonight I am putting the second face wrap on….. No photos this time cause I want a shocker when it is all done.