Pieces of your soul

Please try to follow me on this line of thinking. As I grow and grow in my wisdom of the years, I have read and looked into many different beliefs. Ranging from Buddhism to the state Zenism. I know your going to say what about Atheism, I have always felt we are far to great of a creation to end in a puff of dust.
So what if we are all wrong?  What if we have all missed the point of it? Okay there are over 300+ different beliefs in this world filled Religion. There is no way one of them can be right and the others are wrong. What if we are missing a huge part of the puzzle? What if all of them are right? Think about it, if you look at God being the supreme creator and all the others as his “Chosen” who at one point or another tried to come down and help us see that we are not just simple as something that crawled out of the slime.
Don’t get me wrong I believe in a balance in this universe meaning the Ying and Yang, the Light and Dark. One cannot be without the other. So I do believe in NDE (Near death Experiences) so I have seen the light. So where there is light there must be darkness.
What if the biggest clue we have is the very simple reason of love and kindness. We have all fanned the flames of hate for long enough and not one little bit has resulted in better living.

A question asked and replied to

Today, I got a funny email from a reader of my blog (thank you). The reader asked me “Why are you still single? What are you looking for?” Okay two very good questions. So I replied with the following…
“Thank you so much for the email. Let me start off with the following a very great person I know told me I am like a painting ” a work in progress” A year ago I was beyond miserable, it has taken me a long time to start to see who I am. In this one year that I have spent on me and my children. I have found new things about me that come with being honest with oneself. I have had the greatest time knowing my children without having the threat of abuse hanging over my head. I have looked at finding someone new, but being honest with myself has come at a price. That price is for someone to be with me they need to meet a high set of standards, ones I will not change for anything.
These standards are simple to here or read but hard to live by. They are Kindness with all things, Healthy in heart, body and mind, able to see beauty in all things, likes to try new foods, GENTLE, Does not see sex as a demand but as a beautiful act that builds the relationship, loves children, does not smoke, does not drink in excess, loves education, loves movies, does not flip the tv station when commercials are on, does not have the TV on during dinner time, is not hooked on the TV news, is not hung up on the little things I might do that are wrong, believes in forgiveness, loves my children as her own, loves that I am a complicated person, Loves music, loves art, most of all loves me even though I am Trans.
You see this is why I am still single. I am a very picky person, I have three little children who are still at home and four who have grown up and I am proud of all of them. Most of all I look out for the three little ones cause they are the air, water, fire, and earth of my life. Once upon a time there was a person who could be lifted up if the sun should fail to shine, she is no more. Now I have something even better I have my Sun, Moon and Stars my children. Many people cannot understand therefore they are not right for our family, after all it is not just me”

What do you do?

So here you are and you are now faced with a choice, cause I am. As you my readers know we faced this crime head on and our Daughter received no Justice. It was even so bad that when that child kept harassing our daughter.

So here I am looking at the overall big picture. I gave Micheal his fair go when it came to this issue. I trusted all the people on the Jury’s they had the evidence, i did not. Now that all the evidence is out for everyone to see what am I doing well it is very sad to say I am removing his music from my collection and here is why. When CeeLo Green was caught for rape and sexual harassment in my stand for women I removed his music from my collection. When Rolf Harris was convicted the Queen ditched his painting. Bill Cosby who once was the pin up for good fathers was shown to be a rapist, i refused to watch or listen to anything he did. When Cardinal George Pelt covered up sexual misdeeds we got mad

So where is the justice? If you don’t stand up and say No i will not support these crims. Cause to be honest you cannot be upset about the rapist whos parents were able to convince the courts that 20 minutes should not destroy his future. But the public has take to the internet not to let the public forget this perp / crim. So does what Michael Jackson did not the same as these other perps? Should we allow Michael’s talent to erase his crimes? Cause is that line of thinking not the same as Brock Turner defense of his actions that turned our stomachs.

So for me and my house we are removing Michael Jackson’s music from our collect. I Support all children who were harmed in anyway. Where do you stand when faced with the truth?

The Sun Fell Today

The sun fell today
The Darkness engulfed the earth
The Flowers did not grow
The rain did not stop
The sun fell today
The birds did not sing
The children did not play
The lovers did not walk hand in hand
The sun fell today
The air was stale
The cattle gave no milk
The seas did not rise and fall
The sun fell today
There was no one to replace it
The love I knew was no more

I wrote this a year ago………

I am coming close to a point in my life where reflection is all that I have left. Of a time, of places, of a person. I don’t think many would understand my feelings on this cause I have even a hard time with them. I think I am understanding my grandfather more and more. A long time ago my Grandmother made a mistake that Haunted her for the rest of her life. It haunted my Grandfather as well. Even on his deathbed he forgave her. They lived with different people cause they could never again be with each other. But it never stopped my grandfathers heart. Granted he could never love her the way he once did because of what was done. He forgave her none the less. What an amazing man he was. I used to be concerned how he would have handled me. But then I come to what I have always known that I was loved.

I am including a song that never made as much sense as it does these days. This was my Grandfathers song. There is more to it, that if you read between the lines you would learn so much.

Funny how songs link us to events and people.

Yet in time we all move forward. Even though our past at times is hurtful and filled with memories. I think my Grandfather found peace and happiness in life without my Grandmother and now I am learning that same path. Learning to be happy sharing some of my hidden talents. Sharing some of me at times with all of my readers. I hope as we come to a new year mark that more of my posts will be a bit more uplifting. I do wish each and everyone of you a good life and good choices.