Step by step

I went and had a meeting with Foot and Playstead on printing the book. Found the to be very helpful and kind. Got some promotional business card from Vista print say the book title and go fund me page with the blog site. Self promotion is not going to be a walk in the park. Kinda winging it but it will work out.

Exhaused

I am feeling a bit over whelmed that I am doing so much but it will all get done. I will sleep when I am dead. I will rest when everything is done, whichever comes first. I have been working on the gofundme page as well. I Still have a bit more to do to show everyone where the the money will be going. I was so shocked at the costs of book creation. The printing side is $$ big bucks. I am also looking at where all the people who get a cut of the profits. Glad some of them are one off. I never knew that there was a person who’s job was to format new scripts for print. Then you need an attorney to make sure you are not going to get into legal trouble. Then if you have not designed your book dust sleave and the cover of the book you have to pay someone to do that. Then someone gets a cut for the bad code….Yeah I was thinking the same dame thing I am paying someone to put on a bar code. So you can start to see where all the money will be going at first and it will not be in my pocket.

https://www.gofundme.com/the-shadow-of-ally-2vchnygs

Please share and share often ……Well I need to get back to the grind so to speak…..

So very sorry

Well, there really is no excuse but there is a wonderful reason. I have just moved into the next phase of my book. Funding….Ekk….The book is looking like it will need to be self published and that is okay for me. There are a lot of benefits to that. So if you would like to be a part of this part of my Journey follow the link….

https://www.gofundme.com/the-shadow-of-ally-2vchnygs

Relaxing

I have come to an issue in the book. I want those who read it to enjoy it but at the same time understand the impact of what being transgender is like. I am trying so hard to avoid the I,me and my usage in the book. But it hagotten back to me that this makes me sound like I have multi personality disorder. But at the same time I want the reader to get a sense of the impact that my life has gone through. The only way I can do this is to write in a way that highlights the usage of we, our and us. In respect of writing the book. I think if I wrote the blog that way people might have reason to be concerned.

Now on the funny side I have run into a new problem / issue. I have once again noticed that men really don’t have a clue about boobs. Okay I have this wonderful Top that I love but today I noticed that my boobs have grown to much to wear it. This is something men will never understand. This is a mother reason for always needing new clothes,lol. What the hell is up with the issues of makers not knowing how to use real measurements. My God it is not hard to understand that 18b should be the same by all makers but no that is not the case.

Now that my hips are starting to take shape new undies are required. Just when you think thing are going the way you want. 

I did have a small muscle mass issue last week that is was not able to talk about. I was with a wonderful friend, my body guard James. He had to open my drink for me due to the fact that my hands could not open it.  Try to understand that one. Well I’m sitting here at a café one0six in George Street Launceston. It is time to wrap this up and head out. Have a great day everyone!

The book update

Well I am at the part of writing a synopsis……. Ekk I did not think writing the book was all that hard in fact I am very proud of it but for days now I have had my head stuck in a hole trying to write a synopsis. Okay this has to be the hardest part of writing. I am taking 226+ pages 70,000+ pages and put them into 1 to 2 pages. WHY ME!!!!!!!!!

Transition Timeline

The page Transition Timeline has been updated with the following:

The Fourteenth Month

 Well this was a month of community awareness and not always acceptance. I feel that some features have changed as far as my appearance is concerned. I also think that there have been some changes as well in the facial area. I have been called a woman and people have been using the correct pronouns that do not even know me. This is a mental health issue that I did not really grasp until it started just happening everywhere.

I had the most amazing month as well so many things going the right way, eight different goals were reached. it scared me and I started creating my own little world of anxiety that was a thought process “something bad is going to happen”. It took a good friend taking me out for coffee for a reality check that the world is not going to end that it is just time for me to start receiving some blessing that I deserve and that it was the right time and I was ready for them.

I am still having issues with body hair and the way it is triggering a bit of Dysphoria nothing to bad that I cannot control. I few deep breaths and some music on and away it goes.Breasts are still evolving and are still a bit tender. I am still keeping up with the breast massage and the higher fat intake. I think as summer is starting I am going to have stop finding excuses for no exercise. Writing my book has been a big excuse as well.

Ummmm…..

Okay I have never considered myself to be a lucky person. I am just not, I might say in passing or as a phrase. But in reality I am not, I am blessed but not lucky. I don’t know what happened on Monday this week, it makes no sense. You see everything is starting to come together and so fast my head is spinning. I was almost in tears last night over it all because I still cannot see why. What have I done to be so blessed and at the same time. It confuses me don’t do anything so special that 5 separate thing are starting to fall into place. I will list them and you can see how major they are.

  1. I found this missing piece of Jewelry it is beyond priceless and I have been heart broken since it went missing. It was a gift and it meant a lot to me.
  2. I’m getting closer to going to school
  3. I might be part of the Human Library of Launceston
  4. Finally the light at the end of the tunnel starting to show in regards to the divorce.
  5. I was more than Gendered correctly, Someone asked how I came to Australia. I told them I fell in love. She replied back Oh you are a lucky woman he must be very special. I did not have the heart to correct her that we were getting a divorce that I was married to a woman.
  6. There was no stress in getting the kids to school
  7. My book is getting some amazing reviews
  8. My book is getting closer to being published

While to you some of these might not seem so big but to me there are Huge. Number one speaks for itself. Number 2 is a a goal I set at the start that I did not think towards the end of it I was going to be able to meet. Number 3 look I am not shy about this divorce being a shit storm. I did not like how it went down, I don’t like how I was treated. But I have always wanted my children to be a part of the other parents life equal as they are in my life. I think that is the best thing for the children. So some things are moving in the right direction and that is huge. I hope we can keep it out of the courts and finish this for the children sake. Number I work hard on my makeup I listen to my great friend Bec Stosh  the owner of Enchantress Beauty who is an amazing Makeup artist. When all things come together at the same time and people say the correct pronouns it just lifts your day. Number 6 first day of Term as every parent knows this is a stressful day and for me it fell right in to place. Number 7 I was so scared to write my book let alone let someone read it. People are coming back to me and what they are saying is very kind and lovely. Number 8, I am so very thankful for all my test readers and their comments it has given me a boost to go to the next stage of my book and Publish it.

See it just boggles my mind how this all happened in one day…..

25 things

I don’t know why I am doing this challenge, lol. Why not….

  1. I love the color red
  2. I am a V8 kinda girl but can only afford 6’s
  3. I love Fords
  4. I wear my heart on my sleeve
  5. I blush when someone says I look nice or other complaments
  6. I hate TV
  7. I love to cuddle
  8. I like silver more than gold
  9. I have tried to name all my dogs after Winnie the Pooh
  10. I do not do stress well
  11. I have sleep problems
  12. I want a bull dog and name him Piglet
  13. All Watches stop working once I put them on, if I take them off they start working again.
  14. I am scared of the book I have written or should I say I am scared of what people will think
  15. My first car was a VW bug super beetle 1600, I am so in love with VW bugs
  16. I have only had 3 car wrecks in my life and all were before the age of 25
  17. I listen to music all the time,but my secret love is Opera
  18. I can play the drums
  19. I love the art work in video games
  20. I love vampire movies
  21. I love getting dressed up
  22. I love John Denver Music
  23. I am scared of Needles
  24. I have a memory like an Elephant, but I forget peoples names
  25. I have the feel of grease from a car on my skin

 

Okay these are my 25 things most people don’t know about me. Now you can do it if you want.