What a wonderful day of kind friends wishing me well. It does fill my heart with happiness. Though in saying that there were a few friends who were concerned that I was having my birthday dinner alone. There are a lot of things people don’t understand about me, So I am going to explain a few things.
I am okay with how my life is going right now. It may not be perfect and I am in a large amount of pain 24/7. But I have my children that make life all worth it. I am scared of losing my ability to walk as I can see that in the near future. But I am at peace with it still. I am working with my medical team to work out a path for a bright future. I cannot say enough for all their efforts.
Now as to being alone I am asexual. What that means is I am not really clued into romantic relationships and sex just is not that big of a thing for me. But there is also an underlying issue that is part of the reason I am also alone. What happened to me in my last relationship has scarred me and it will take someone amazing and with a large heart to make me trust someone like that again.
Though in saying the above I love my children and pour all of my emotional energy into making sure that they know that they are cared for on so many different levels. That is enough at this moment in time.
Once again thank you for all the birthday wishes.