I shared this on my FB. But I love it so much I think more should have a chance at reading it. When I was younger I struggled with my view of self. I could not enjoy who I saw in the mirror and it only got worse as the years moved on.
When I made the choice to step out of the shadows I lost so many people that I once counted as friends and loved ones. I was really shocked about the response to my honesty about “ME”. It had no bearing on anyone other than me and my children. So many others wanted it to be about them. Some even told lies about me. I was still the same person that helped others when they asked for it. I was still the same person who opened my home to feed others. There was nothing really new except that I look different. It was really sad to have that happen.
My heart was really broken when someone that I helped so much started to attack me publicly. I was so hurt I could not see a rhyme or reason for their attack other than they were always filled with hate for others who were different than him. The sad thing was his children are severely disabled. I wonder if his hate for what happened to them was just directed towards me.
I hear these same stories over and over again. So many in my community are angry with all the constant attacks that we have to defend ourselves from. Can you blame a community for being angry when so much hate is directed towards them (i.e. The black community). I am concerned that the truth about being Transgender is being lost in the defense of who we are. We are becoming outwardly angry about the constant attacks from the bigots.
There is so much beauty in a person who knows who they are inside and outside. It matters when you understand your true self. I only wish so many others in and out of my community could find that sense of peace. It matters in life to be at peace with your view of “Self”