Sorry it’s late Anna

I love my readers!

Well today was not as good as I hoped for my attorney did not give me as much hope as I wanted looks like we are going to have a fight on our hands and I know that the Gender issue will be brought up. Bloody hell, the person who wrote the family report should be dropped from the courts or there should be a way to complain about her ethics.

Okay on to the subject I promised Anna… Well this week a new milestone was hit I went to my first appointment for Laser hair removal. Wow I was nervous but the AMAZING staff that Vogue Launceston did an amazing job keeping me calm as they are so friendly for the Trans-community. I went in the room laid down with their provided glasses and I was treated to a very very close shave, i think she could learn the strait edge she would be even better….just saying. she took a good look at the test patch and told me it looked great. Which made me feel in seventh heaven. We talked over what I should see when this is done. Then she started……..

Okay the pain is so real it can be mimic-ed with easy take a rubber band and snap it against your skin on your face. So now you know what to expect write it down wad it up and toss it in the rubbish cause you know jack shit, lol.

She began snap oh I can handle that…it hurt a little bit yup it did. No pain no gain, if I ever find that person who started that right now I am going to kill them….Ouch there is one more, snap. Wow she is going fast phew cause I am sweating right now and I can’t squeeze face on firemy hands any tighter. WTF…. Holy cow……dear god all mighty that was my Jaw line….. No way why in the hell does that hurt so damn bad. Wow there it is again. Oh that’s done SMACK nope that the side burn area…. WOW. I get a break now I can breath once more.

Rise and repeat right? F*&^ing wrong new sife of you face and new pain threshold. Bahaha, ok I have found out now I have those nerves working once more. Jaw line I am ready…Nope I was not ready for that.

Ahh the break once more the upper lip sure it is a small area I am ready for that. Right…… WRONG! its only four little snaps suck it up girl I can do this. A few minutes later who ripped off my lip! ok Breath it is all done, oh what is that such nice and calming liquid wiat liquid…….OUCH! Stop touching my face!!!!  Ahh that feels better ok you can put that on my face again. Now I have a red face minor sunburn. Stings a bit.

Ok I will admit it might not have been that bad after all but at the time this is what is going through your mind. She asked me not to save if I could every day. Part of  my GID is looking like I have a beard when I am dressed like a woman. I do not was to be the bearded woman. So I made it to a day and a half. Might do better this weekend.I have made two more appointments looking forward to them. Wow the though of not having facial hair is amazing.

Well I hoped you enjoyed my first adventure in laser.

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Spirit vs. Body

Is the issue of our Transition  based off of a birth defect vs. a metal health issue. This is what I want you to look at and think about with this post.The medical Gate Keepers want to make it more about the brain rather than looking at it from a stand point of a physical issue. As a physical issue we might want to look at it as a issue of mind and soul over the body. We need to deconstruct the issues of these elements let take the mind and body as physical elements and soul as another element.

The medical profession would like people to think that it was an issue of the mind. Which is linked linked to an easy solution of just a few options. One being that psychoanalysis and counseling can resolve, another being one where medical pharmaceuticals can be issued to to adjust the mindset, some pseudo science has attempted  to use regressive therapies, and currently all that is working is the Gate keeper model. As all you can see is that the forms of medical intervention are long and drawn out.

What would to happen if the Medical Model were to change and address the issues of Transgender more as a Birth Defect rather than an issue of the mind. Would the normal issues of the current Gate Keeper Model be required any longer? Granted AI can see that there would see need to be oversight on the persons who are affected and treatment before and after the HRT (hormone replacement therapies) and then once more before the issues of SRS (sexual reassignment surgery) took place.

I feel that the issues that might be resolved is the discrimination that many in the trans community face on a day to day basis. No longer would we have the issues of making laws that protect two or three different issues and use the ones that are currently in place. In America right now the American with Disabilities act fails to protect the Trans community but maybe with the change of mind that we are not sick in the head or going through some phase we might be able to look at the person who is as just a person who was born with a bum leg (sorry for the bad use of explanation). We might even get to see an improvement in the healthcare of the Trans community, a reduction in the Suicide rate, as well as issues of less Trans being a drain on the welfare system.

Even now we are seeing the same issues on the Trans community as the rest of society. We have Upper class, Middle class and poor in the economic spectrum. We also have those who identify as Strait, Gay and Bi-Sexual, yes I know that many will find this confronting to think that there is a possibility of a Strait Trans person. But thinking that Strait is an attraction of one Gender to another Gender from my research this is more often than not a result. We see the issues of Introverts and Extroverts, likes and dislikes none of this is different that any other person on this planet.

By changing the view of the Trans community from a mental issue to a birth defect issue we might see a break in the mold and the strangle hold that many religions and governments trying to attack the trans community.Thus removal of labels that are attached to a Trans person as well. Case in point and I will use myself in this case. I am a Transwoman and I was a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of ladder-day Saints (Mormons)* in November of 2015 the Church created a policy that removed the ability of children to be members in any ways shape or form if the child has a parent who is in a same sex relationship until that child is 18 and denounces that relationship (wow, i know it is heavy). This policy makes it hard on a Trans person like me cause I was born with male parts and not female parts. So therefore once I have SRS (sexual reassignment surgery) done that will be corrected. BUT (yes I know anything before a but is bullshit it is needed here) in the LDS church I am not able to marry a man cause I was born with those parts and I be considered a homosexual and I would not be able to marry a woman cause I was changed into a woman and that makes me a lesbian. If the model is changed to a birth defect rather that a mental issue we could then point out that if I was to marry a man I was not a homosexual cause it was a correction of a birth defect.

Laws would no longer be needed to address the issues of SRS and name changes and Birth Cert. being fixed as due to the model being changed this could happen automatically. Thus reducing overall legal issues clogging up the courts on things that could be repaired with ease.

Now I am not saying that this would fix every problem that the Trans community have but it might help those who struggle with the change view this change in a different way? I leave it up to you to look at this idea yourself…..

“here’s my two cents”

*I am no longer a member of the LDS church, though I respect all beliefs and the right to worship as you may see fit.

I think I have found HELL

Yup, I am a Trans-woman fighting the good fight for the children’s future. So I have been running in and out of problems that the Ex-to-be starts and gets away with. She thinks she is smart and she thinks that it is causing me hell. Well I can be honest I am saddened by the loss of a person who once could have replaced the stars in the nights sky. Now I have seen the true you, well staying with you would have been HELL. Though I think I have this also to say…..

But I was going to say the real hell is when you as a parent works real hard to get the dinner thought up and underway then when you taste it you are in heaven you have done it all perfect. Then the kids sit at the table ready to enjoy what you have created then BAM it was not designed for childrens taste buds and not a single one of them like it

Having a little fun with life!

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People are always asking me for my web address. So why not build a business card.

 

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T-Shirt to boot as well.

 

I know that I am taking very well to the hormones. Body changes are going well well. I was thinking of have a shirt saying look up! Wow I caught a guy staring, Crap they are on a B cup and I was not dressed very high but it was so funny i just wanted to say Hi I am up here.

On top of it I was visiting my work today to say “Hello, I am coming back”. I love my job and going back is a huge blessing. I look forward to it soon I hope. There was this lovely person who has a very short memory and for about 5 minutes kept staring at me then walked up to one of the managers and asked “Is that person a Boy or a Girl?” such wonderful honesty I love my job. The Mgr gave her this wonderful explanation about gender and it was very beautiful. Though I am sad to say I don’t think it sunk in very well. The disability she has makes it hard sometimes for her to understand certain things. I do love her soul though.

Someone asked me if I would return

Well, what a question to ask me of all people. Hhow I can answer it……

Why should I?

My family for the most part have become narrow minded asses. 3 of them from what I can tell are humans and are somewhat open minded. 1 Is cool beyond the rest of them. So as far as family I would not be welcome by any of them in any way shape or form. I mean after this third strike with the in the family game of Baseball. I am going to be getting my Australian Citizenship and giving up my US. I am that unhappy with the lot of them. I thought it was bad when talking to my mum about a few things like the family was not going to tell me when one of my Parents passed away and that my mum and dad wanted it that way. To giving a Family heirloom to my Nephew that was to come to me. But hey I am in Australia so no need for a gun here. So the list goes on and on.

Is it safe?

Well Lets look at the level of Government, SD has passed a bathroom law Link 1 which bans Students in schools, they might try a law like what was attempted in WA, Link 2. Thank god it was defeated. Look at this news Link 3 , did you look real close as to where the deaths are from? 10 in the US vs. 1 in Australia. Add that with my issues in my Family I am not so sure I would be safe around any of them bar the 3.

Employment?

Well I would not trust that I could find a job……… At least here in Australia the laws are such that you have a fighting chance. Mind you I have read and heard about a few people that have won that game of Roulette.

Safe Places to live?

I don’t know if you could point out that there is really a safe place from all that I read I have heard and seen a lot of violence towards Trans community in the US. Yeah I know that things here is Australia are not perfect but HELL i am safe in my home and I feel safe in my community.

Healthcare?

Please leave it up to a the USA to come to Australia and say damn we like yours but…. Lets fuck it up completely. If I get sick I am safe, if I need my HRT I don’t have to sell a kidney for it. Healthcare cannot be refused because I am Trans or I cannot pay.

Yup you got it, I can’t see a reason why should I. There is no reason at all. Sorry I can’t do it to myself. I mean where would I end up, No money, No job, no food, no home, no friends, no family, no real healthcare, wow look at those “No’s”. Now add my children into the mix there is no way I would give up what we have here for nothing there. Sure there is Gay marriage but that cannot make up for so many negatives and if you look at the MANY churches that are trying to back state laws to revoke that in one form or another HELLO UTAH! Funny when you can link the Westbrough Baptist Church (The Haters), Catholic Curch and The Mormons all have in common. Wow I never though I would say that the Mormons and Westbrough are common allies, EEKKKK!

It’s been no Secret

Surprise!

Since November the 6th my shelf of faith has been rocked and has fallen. I know that this has not been helped by what my family has been doing as well. I have Read the CES at http://www.ces.com this is not an Anti-mormon letter it is a letter that is asking the Church Educational System some very hard questions that to this day have never been answered by the church. Even so the church for this person asking these questions has been seeking to have him Excommunicated. In Fact they were seeking to do it on February the 14 of 2016 but it was postponed until March.

Well I have also been watching the the issues that are going on in Utah and the scandals of the Child Sexual Abuse in the LDS church that has been going on and the cover ups. If you are not aware of it I think it is up to you to find it out. But going on with this same topic but a different church is what the Catholic church with a few bad priests who have done the same and how the church covered it up. Today while still sick I was reading Facebook I came across this little video and the pain that every person has had to go through. I am a parent of a child who was Sexually Assaulted. I don’t think many people really know pain of a broken heart like that of a child who has gone through this issue and there is no Justice for them. The many and I do mean many sightings of the “perp” who did this to my little girl is nothing compared to having to see him every Sunday and other events. Please take the time watch this video all the way to the end. If you can help please help. These children have a right to Justice!

Like I said these people that he is singing about  is just like my little girl.

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Every child deserves Justice!

Hey LDS Church leaders stop hiding behind you high walls and come forward with the truth and let the Justice be heard.